I am truly, truly sorry this had to happen to you! But as Mary Oliver once said, “Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this, too, was a gift.” I know it is very hard right now. You are wishing to hold on to something that is gone. When we do this, we do not live. I understand the pain when someone you love walks away from your life. But you must ask yourself, is it worth sitting in a shell of misery, or is it worth going on finding that life has so much more to offer? I know it is hard, as I said before, but the only way to move forward and find out what your future holds is to take the first step. There is someone out there who will be with you and give a real fairytale. Wait for them. Grieve a little now but know, as Mary Oliver said, this too is a gift. Embrace it! It will show you how strong you really are.